I head to Adelaide today to learn more about snake medicine; working with the two snakes we utilise in the traditions I work in, Sanara and Ungur. Sanara and Ungur are sister. Sanara is red and black, fast like lightning and bitey, working inside to clear what's no longer required. Ungur is black and green, a python, languid and slow, enveloping, taking you into her belly so you can shed.
I have effigies for each snake, made in the desert during my training. I sat with the effigies today. Reflecting on my Sandra Ingerman's wisdom, of the usefulness of a clear intention going into a journey space, after praying, I asked for each snake to come forward, and show me what I needed to know about the work ahead.
At first the energies of both snakes was confusing, and I wondered if I should have just worked with one. The inside space felt vague, as it often does, and I remembered Ingerman's words re breathing into the heart space. This helped.
I experienced the electricity of Sanara, and the slow consuming nature of Ungur. A part of me felt foregrounded. a part that needs to make itself big to protect a sense of being too vulnerable. The biting of Sanara felt shocking, I notice the biting bringing me into the present moment. I could feel the fear of stepping into Ungurs mouth. But I feel ready to let stuff go now, and shed my skin.
I feel the work I have done over the last month has prepared me to let go of wounded parts of me. I no longer need to have the same, limiting relationships with these parts of myself and story. Previously, I have energetically 'fought' to keep things as they are, even while I could feel the discomfort and inhibition the beliefs around the old wound were causing, not on purpose, but that's just what was there.
I wasn't ready for a new way of being. Through deep engagement with my feeling/spirit landscape I feel like I have created a context for a new way of being to take hold. I am noticing more resilience, and a quieter 'inner critic', less resistance to change.