I have a client who I have read cards for over the last year or so. In our exchanges I asked her if she would be open to me practicing my shamanic healing with her. She agreed, and I have started to map my experiences of healing in her non physical spaces.
Even though I have had a number of years of shamanic training, I have always found my experiences are different from my training. My knowing often comes before a healing will start, as well as during. For example, my knowing might start with an hour or so before I work, a stone might speak to me with a message relating to the healing, or a bird call might trigger a felt sense, I have had to hold this at times, because it wasn't the way I have been taught.
I think its important to hold the traditions I have been taught and work within, while still learning about my own personal connection to non physical experiences and allies.
Once my client had given me her permission to work with her, I started tuning in. (My tuning in happens both formally in a sitting down eyes closed space, as well as day to day receiving insights as I walk down the street).
Firstly I experienced a baby, this felt like a part of her linked to current blocks in her life. It could be her or a representation of her. My experience of this part of her was of it feeling totally alone, isolated, frightened. I also experienced a wolf around this child. The wolf felt bound to the child, but the baby felt afraid of the wolf.
I reflected this to my client. She stated that from previous work she had done, the wolf was a totemic energy for her. There was also another wolf connection with her from another person in her life that was significant.
After sharing my reflections I asked again if she was happy for me to continue, she was.
Feeling into this baby energy, it felt very unhappy, its isolation so painful it had given up. I was wondering if it would be possible to break through, or work to shift this into something else. I have set a parameter for the work with this part of my client as 7 days, working each day with this part and seeing what unfolds.
Today when I sat, I experienced the toughness of the babies sadness and pain. As I held this part of my client in the non physical, slowly I could feel this part move beyond the story of its pain. This part fell into the deepest and most peaceful sleep I had ever experienced. It felt like this baby part was being restored to its self, its beingness. The wolf, which had previously felt scary, felt kind and nurturing. Other things happened too.
I made an effigy of the baby to carry with me today, and across the week, to strengthen my connection to this part of her, and continue my non physical spaces working with her non physical spaces.