Half a spider

When I sat today I noticed the crow, strong, healthy dancing dancing dancing. I noticed closer to my body half a spider. Spider is a special kind of medicine for me. I have come to see spider as being an expression of my femaleness. Crow of my male. 

I have noticed her withdrawn, frozen, and shy. Today I noticed she was only half there. I felt the drum beat beat along the seam of her halfness. With crow to my right dancing. Beating his wings. I felt the lack of safety that seems to keep the spider only half there. 

I noticed her grow very big, and grow very small. In this experiencing she was black with a red strip down her back.