Active context

I briefly flicked through Sandar Ingerman's book before I sat today. She was talking about journeyings place as a healing modality. This reminded me of my powerful healing experiences across the last weeks and  refocused my attention going intoday.

When I sat today, I noticed my almost zoning out at the beginning. I reminded myself that journeying is an active not a passive process. I could feel this shifting my energetic experience. I noticed content arising around my mother, and teh lack of mothering I experienced. I reflected on uncomfortable recollections of my sometimes not adequate mothering of my own daughter. 

Again, I was drawn to the surface of my experiencing body, noticing the way the uncomfortable feelings pulsed. I was aware I was traveling with crow. I was aware of the beating of crows wings. This beating felt like it was energising the pulsing uncomfortable surface of my feeling body. It felt like it was offering a regulation of my heart. Comforting 

The context of coming here, into this active deep feeling space, holding myself again and again feels so precious. It reminded me in different context, that there is the expectation to heal immediately , especially when working with alternative modalities. That a single journey will resolve all parts of an wound. 

My own experience and intuition is that it is by going again and again, working with the complex surfaces of the wound, the inside feeling space contexts and the way these intersect with the outside circumstances of the person's life healing is achieved.